Oh, how I wish I could write a post a day. How I wish this blog was more consistent, more useful to you, more of a community, and more of what I truly envision it to be. How I think the world of you, how I believe in you, how I love you, how I admire the greatness that lies within you. For some reason or another, I am filled with ideas of how to make this blog a beautiful community where we would inspire one another more and I would fill you with the resources and tools I wish I had when I was a teen. And yet, I sit down to write a post and it’s as if I’m filled with darkness. Darkness that keeps me from working, a darkness that suddenly blocks of inspiration. A darkness that holds me back in a stream of doubts.
I wish I had the answers to why there are so many doubts, so many setbacks, so many fears, so many feelings as if I were being bound down constantly by the adversary to spread a message I feel is so essential for you incredible girls to hear.
I woke up this morning and realized how many doubts were cycling my mind over and over again and I was determined to do something about it. I pulled up the talk that has saved me time and time again. One from one of my favorite people on the planet, Elder Holland. The talk is from the 2013 General Conference, titled “Lord, I believe.” I’m sure you’ve listened to it before if not a few times, it’s a powerful one. But this morning I listened to it a bit differently than I normally do. Before I started listening, I made a list. I made a list of all the doubts that are weighing me down today, things I want to believe in but for some reason, I can’t bring myself to this very day. Then I told Heavenly Father about my doubts, yes, he knows them already. He knows my mind better than I do. But I think of Christ, I think of how He would report to Heavenly Father as He was creating the earth day in and day out telling Him the specifics, the things God was already aware of.
It’s so important when we are desiring to create something new that WE do it. God’s not going to do everything for us. We have to take that responsibility upon us. However, we NEED Him, so we must turn to the ultimate creator (OUR LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER) and give Him every single detail so He can further coach us. I look at the creation as a time for Heavenly Father to be a mentor to Christ, a preparatory time for Christ to then be able to be a mentor to us.
We NEED to report, we need to keep them aware of the details. That’s how we stay connected to Him and we then become aware of what He would have for us. You’re not alone and you’ll figure that out when you start having conversations with Him, instead of assuming He knows all because He’s seeing it all. Talking is ALWAYS better than observing.
It’s as if there is a glass between Heavenly Father and you, you slide the glass over to talk and to ask if you’re doing it correctly and He then answers back. Without ever sliding the glass over to ask, things can get in a huge tangled mess. So let Him be a part of this creation process with you. Involve Him as you’re trying to create yourself by removing unnecessary doubts that aren’t benefiting your life.
Once I wrote down my doubts and then prayed about them, I listened. I mean I REALLY listened and it’s as if angels came running to give me the strength the adversary had been taking away.
Girls, I dare you to try this. I dare you to be willing to give up your doubts for just one day. You certainly don’t have to solve all your doubts today…but you have to be willing to turn them over to Christ temporarily until you have relied on Him enough that they aren’t even a part of you anymore. Allow Christ to create something new out of you. Allow your heart to be changed through faith. You can do this, I believe in you!!
Steps to fighting your doubt:
- Write down the doubts holding you back (Doubts about yourself, about your faith, about your capabilities, about your school, about your performance, etc.)
- Pray about your list. Make sure Heavenly Father knows you’re acknowledging your doubts.
- Listen to THIS TALK “Lord, I believe” By Elder Holland.
- Pray again and then go to work with the promptings you receive.
I made you a printable to use as you write down all your doubts.
You are capable of all things pretty girl, I believe in you.